I'm trying to start the recovery process but I'm trying to recoverfrom more than just sexual abuse (incest). And I don't know what to focus on it's really overwhelming. Not only am I an abuse survivor but I'm Also in recovery from drug addiction. I just completed a 28 day inpatient rehab program august 27th and am still clean. But it's not just that. I found out about 2.5 years ago that I am HIV+. So as you can tell I have a lot on my plate. I don't know where to begin. My counselor says to hold off until I have like 2 years sobriety to work on abuse counseling or I might relapse. But that and the HIV diagnosis is what is bothering me the most. I have persistent flashbacks and a definite preoccupation with dying and death. Not suicidal ideations or thoughts just I feel like I am going to lose so much of my life to this disease -- it's kind of hard to explain. I'm limited with time so I'll explain more in depth later. I just keep thinking about getting sick and dying of AIDS.
I dunno I guess I just could use a few words from a friend or need someone to talk to about this stuff