We have been married a year and a half. We are in our 20's. We have our lives ahead of us...
4 weeks ago my husband went nuts. He strangled me, threw me into the ground, held me down, kept throwing me down... and then finally, while holding me down, started fondling my breasts, and tried fingering me. And said something really nasty to me, which I will spare you all of---
He has since been to jail, rehab, AA, we have had couples counseling, I have gone to Domestic Violance classes---
He has court ordered stuff that he has to do now
But my issue-- is not the obvious. Please spare me the "he will do it again" comments---
I want to stay married to my husband. I am glad he is back home. And we are working on all aspects of our relationship and ourselves. we have banned alcohol from our home. we see a counselor every week--- we are trying. BUT, when we are in bed, and we start kissing or cuddling---
I flip out. I hyperventilate. I freeze. I start crying.
I think about everything that happened over again. I can feel his hands around my neck when they are not there. I can see him hurting me.
We havent had sex in like 3 months. And im not trying to rush it... but I want to be able to feel safe in his arms again... and I need someone to please give me some advice. Has anyone been there and fixed it... and come out on top?