Un-denial Of Addiction:
If you've read this far, it may be you're already past this point. Usually, the first part of denial is denying you have a problem in the first place. The only way we addicts can do this is if we have an ample supply of people around to blame. Parents are usually first on the list, closely followed by boss, spouse, children, the economy, the weather. Some addicts are so good at blaming others that many of the others begin to blame themselves. If you're the spouse of an addict, please look into the issue of codependency, for the sake of your addict and yourself. Once you finally accept that you have a problem, it's time to admit you can't solve it by yourself. If you're at the edge of this point, but still deny that you need help, here's how to prove it to yourself. Look yourself in the eye (it's good to use a mirror for this), and commit to quit for one year. If you find yourself using again in months, weeks, days or hours...you know you need help.
I don't think most people who are honest with themselves intend to blame others. I myself don't. For me, sometimes recovery is just plain-old frustrating. Sometimes I don't want to have to work on myself, and just live my life. I get weary trying to change every negative thing sometimes. Sometimes I need a break from dealing with my issues and I just need to be able to have fun. I also need a break from some of the people who have completely lost faith in me, especially since some of those people also have their own problems. I'm not saying my thinking is 100% correct. However, that is how I feel sometimes.
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